Inner confusions

 I not not married, but not single…
 I am too young, and I am too old…
 I am neither here, nor there…
 I am a woman who does a man’s work…
 I don’t belong here, and yet I do…
 I hurt and I laugh...
The smile is perma-glued to my lips, even though it does not reach my heart…
 I want to leave, yet I want to stay…
 I must clean, but I must work…
 I am not a whale, nor fit…
 Am I sexy or trying to hard…
 Do I mother to much or not enough…
 Should I do what is good for me or what I want…

It's the little things in life...

Like this little thing right here that is growing up so fast...   It's hard to believe she's 2, and starting to talk albeit so slowly, it is extremely frustrating at times...  Little moments out of ordinary little days, finding the small joys and making tiny memories that shape our lives...   Once this would have been an impossible dream to take a moment out of our day for breakfast for 2, but now it is just another part of our lives...

Today is a great day...

The sun is shining, I'm sitting outside in my barefeet with out a jacket on and just enjoying all that my little piece of heaven has to offer while the baby sleeps in her crib.  It reminds me what I love about my land, and how much happier I am now than I have been in such a very long time.  It's amazing what a little sun can do for ones life..