It's the little things in life...

Like this little thing right here that is growing up so fast...   It's hard to believe she's 2, and starting to talk albeit so slowly, it is extremely frustrating at times...  Little moments out of ordinary little days, finding the small joys and making tiny memories that shape our lives...   Once this would have been an impossible dream to take a moment out of our day for breakfast for 2, but now it is just another part of our lives...

I think I am ready

to come back, to blog again, to start anew.  You may have noticed that all there was is now gone, that is because all I have known is now gone.  My marriage of 10 years is over.  What once started as a loving relationship made a sudden turn last year into a very abusive one, it was bad.  Bad for me, and bad for the children.

Last summer when my writing slowed and eventually stopped it was because I felt I could not write what was truly happening, I was censoring myself against the truth, protecting myself and others from what was really happening here, and afraid of the consequences that I would face if I shared our lives truthfully, and I was becoming tired of the lies, lies to myself, lies to the world and at the point where I just couldn't do it anymore.

So now I can lay it on the line, try to be who I am, or was, or want to be.  I am facing the facts and moving forward.  I have been living a new life, or at least trying to since the beginning of December, and I think I am finally ready to share again.